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[{ESC}Amoniac]

i pray so hard today and tomorrow , bc God is with you , is with us.

you can be a very bad man, kill with you hands people , humans that are friends family parents of other humans, and i know God will be mercy and forgive me.
i know also that God never send to us things that we can not handle it. so be brave, breath deep and pray a lot

[{ESC}fReeLaNceR]

Hey Amoni!
Thanks a lot!

[{ESC}Amoniac]

not a problema thanks to you sir for make me pray more hard. i know you feel in deep troubles, but i know YOU CAN MAKE IT SIR, NOT MATTER WHAT YOU CAN DO IT, so see this if someone that dont know you at all think you can make it well God that know you 10000% can put you things to handle it. so be brave bc you are you, breath slow so you can think before acting, and rememebr even we those people that dont know you tpray hard for you only becouse you are awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


and if you want i can tell you my history is boooring , and full of sad parts, but also have a great end the end that i write each day sir

like you

[{ESC}fReeLaNceR]

LOST

[{ESC}Amoniac]

lets say this I kill people real people I take their lifes, so God put me in a lot of troubles to find out that I am who I am and nothing change that ,no one can change me, I hava lung collapse doctors say is imposible to recover, you if you live have to be connected to a machine for the rest of your living years. I say nope I don't belive it, I belive in me in what I can do, I lost my left hand, people say to me pitty ammoniac he don't have a hand, he have that machine connected to him, tubes inside me in my back, they say to me you will be a sad thing.

so I say NOOO I AM NOT PITTY God send me to live this to know how great I can be, I want to see my kids old and with their ffamilies I want to talk all days, I want to breath normal, I want to walk outside, I want to stand up and say I am not pitty I am not something sad I am a human

here I am like you, and all people well most of ESc know part of my life. and they don't say ohhh poor ammoniac, pooor thing .

so if I a normal person, can play coll of duty with only one hand. if I can now talk like crazy laugh all day, walk and jump(that IS WHY I DONT COME LIKE I JUST TO COME HEHEHEH I AM OUTSIDE A BIT MORE HEHEH) if I nothing powerfull can live a surgery that doctor say I can die and maybe don't work. you freelancer that have way better more awesomeness then me, more great things then me , if you are way more a better human then me can make anything . you can get ovewr this and you WILL BE OVER OF THIS.

I hope you are not lost now hehehehehhehehe

[{ESC}fReeLaNceR]

Amoni! Sorry not that easy... she took my inly reason to breath... my son and herself away from me...
but i really apriciate your will to give me some of your overwellming power. thank you so much!

[{ESC}fReeLaNceR]

but there is a lil new dream i got.

My best frien from Carthag TX trys to help me to find a 1970 Ford Mustang Shelby in the US.



Or an 1970 Mustang Boss 302 V8



to import it to Germany. only 1/4 of the price over here.

this new love is the best what happened after my wife left!

[{ESC}Amoniac]

now you have to let me ride it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hehhehe and maybe parking your car sir!!!!!!

[Bas]

Good to see you are shifting your efforts. I can only imagine how rough life must be right now, but with time I am sure it will hurt less!

[Admin]

yes time heals all,,I know thqt sounds stupid at the moment, but things will get better,,your son will grow up and see you!!